9am: Did
I even get any sleep last night?
Am I even
awake yet?
Oh no,
didn’t want to read that on Facebook. Ouch.
Why is
everyone flaunting their happy lives in front of me?
Oh god,
it hurts to move
Come on,
you need to move
No wait,
remember that dream you had last night? What does that mean? Did that really
happen?
Oh god,
what will today bring?
10am: Give yourself some credit, you're out of bed, time for breakfast
10:30am:
I should get dressed
Maybe
I'll have a cigarette first, somehow it doesn't make me feel better though
Brush
your teeth, I know its hard, but you need to brush your teeth, you'll feel
better
10:45am: OK, you're dressed, make-up?
No,
make-up is too much work
10:50am: Actually, maybe if I put some make-up on I can go out
Yeah, I
feel good, going to go to the shops and I treat myself to something nice
11am: Staring in the mirror, make-up surrounding me
11:10am: No, I can't go out
11:15am: Yes you can, you're feeling GOOD
Aww,
that’s a cute video
Haha,
funny memes
Wait, no,
why did I watch that? Why is that not my life?
Why am I
alone?
12pm:
I've not moved for 45 minutes now, everything hurts
I'm
sleepy, might nap
No its
too early to nap, I'll do some chores
Ugh
Ugh
1pm: OK cool, got some shit done
Not much,
but it's something
I feel a
little better now
1:15pm: Actually I feel GREAT
I'm going
to turn my life around!
I am a
QUEEN
YOU ARE A
STRONG INDEPENDENT WOMAN AND YOU DON'T NEED NO MAN
1:16pm:
I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life
1:20pm: I
am so sad
Should I
self harm?
No I
shouldn't self harm
But it
will make me feel better
But it
will make me feel worse
1:30pm:
I've paced the house for 10 minutes talking myself out of this Should I
message someone?
Nah, they won't be able to help me
Where's a cat?
2pm: It's cool, I'm safe
Blanket
Cat
Netflix
I. Can. Do.
This
2:10pm: Ah, mums home. Company.
Lunch
time, why do I live for food lol?
Should I
have some pudding?
No, I'm
watching my weight
Hahahah
where's the cake
3pm: So
sleepy
Just
going to close… my eyes……..
5:30pm: Nap hangovers are the worst
But
awesome nap
You
deserved that
6pm: Big
Bang Theory re-runs…
6:40pm: I
feel so low
6:50pm:
WHY IS THE TV VOLUME SO LOUD
TURN THE
FUCKING VOLUME DOWN
6:52pm:
NO CAT LEAVE ME ALONE
I AM NOT
IN THE MOOD
I'm going
to punch someone right now I'm sure of it
7pm: Am I
hungry?
Nah
7:30pm: Bath time.
Ah,
finally time to relax.
Lol nope
Who am I? Where am I? Why am I?
Sad
9pm: This
is nice
Good TV is good
Aww look
at the cute animal!
I feel
good, I am loved, I am safe, I am warm
I love
you kitty
Give me a
cuddle kitty
11:30pm: Approximately 6 mood swings in the past 2 hours
Exhausted
Night
meds
11:35pm: Come on, wash your face
Brush
your teeth
Look
after yourself
It's easy
No its
not
11:50pm: Scrolling, scrolling, scrolling
Family
guy
Bed is
comfy
Bed is
safe
Scrolling
Hehe cute
doggy
My eyes
are burning
Thank
goodness for Quetiapine
12:21am:
………..
This helped me ��
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